In a relationship, broken up, single, dating... all in about 3 weeks. I'm freaking out, I don't want it to come back around to "in a relationship" so quickly... but I think I've really hurt him in the process. He has never asked me about my ex, has agreed to trot along at my pace and give me time, but I still freaked out, and now I'm regretting it.
Why do I have such a hard time trusting guys? I know he's a good guy... but my mind starts playing tricks, and suddenly all I can see is another guy out to get me, use me and get rid of me... and I don't want that, so I pushed him away. It's all in my mind, and I do know that, but for some reason it doesn't stop me from thinking it.
Why couldn't you see I just needed you to hold me, promise me everything would be ok. I'm just a girl, I need reassurance, I need someone to fight for me and to show me that they care.
Maybe I do need some time by myself to sort things out... I just dont know if I can call him when I'm done. I keep thinking it will be better to leave it, better if I let him go, I'm bad for him... ok, I have some thinking to do, but in the meantime I need some mindless tv!
Sweet Dreams
xx
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
